Realizations & Reflections

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Well, after my previous post, which as i had mentioned in a few places on my Facebook that i “accidentally” published it, that taught me a lot. God taught me through it that it was His Willing that my post was published “accidentally”, i was in actual going to delay it to some date later, edit it and etc. when i wasn’t busy, just like the 7-8 other posts that i have……LOL.

This made me realize that you must let Life go the way God want us to, there’s no use in delaying, rushing, or resisting at all. you must Participate in The Moment, and give it your best, that’s the best you can do, and that’s all you have and that i am Grateful, that i learnt and realize this….then at the speed of ***SWOOOSH*** came a thought which said “what if i had realized this later, i would’ve started working on what i have to” and then Strikingly Fast at the Speed of Light came in another thought **SWOOSH** from my heart that said “God drives our lives the way He wants to & He didn’t want me to realize this before”

Remember, Never EVA let regret even come near, Thank God my heart was on a total “Shooo off you moron” mode :D!

Surely a moment for me to wink on myself ;). LOL…..well, that’s pretty much the way life goes, **Confession Mode Activated** i’ve been into resisting and delaying a lot of stuff, not only like my blog posts, even related to what i do and what i aspire ‘n’ inspire to do. All it just takes is to open your eyes : ). When God wills and the time is right, things will happen and they surely will fall in place, why worry ? why rush ?. The same day was filled with more surprises, a kind Twitter friend and the Founder of Twylah, Kelly Kim, she RT’ed my post, i was like “Whoa :D! From where did she come to know about it 😀 ?” In a happy way though, i was about to kinda jump and dance.

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You can never expect how or which way life goes…OMG……ooh not to mention i had my solid “weird beard” cc. my post “Weekend Chewbies“, i had my mind screaming “Hoooray Hooray, you like a drunkard”, how worse can it get….LOL. The night about Gratefulness and then the end of the same day on the note of “Realizations” some secret lessons this day had to teach, well i also learn about “Patience”, i was gonna Publish this one too at the same day, i gave it a thought that, after my deadlines are over, i will Publish it, without thinking about or editing my words, at times i even drastically edited my posts thinking that they were too Frank or Outspoken, this right now, and Thank God for the blessing for a friend, they made me realize that this is who i am, editing my writing and what i write here which comes first from my heart, i just edit my authenticity somewhere, my message remains the same, but i intended to, you know, redraft my language thinking that some might find it to be appropriate, what i learnt, and also some one told me before, i should write for myself, i just have to write, it flows from my heart, and God wills, whatever flows from one’s heart is always liked and loved by everyone : ).

Those things and words from our heart that we edit, takes away a part of ourselves, leaving something unsaid, so never edit what comes from your heart : ).

Thank God for bringing these words to my heart “Never let the words & actions that come from your heart ever be edited”

And i am publishing this one after many days of writing the above parts, its not that what i write or something, its what God taught me, that matters. I learnt that its important that we keep God first and let things take their own course, that we have a strong will and intention to DO and God will open the doors on His own.

This year has been an Incredible Journey, with many many ups and downs, All my Gratitude to God for blessing me with growth, for showing me the right way, for guiding me, in each step of mine that i fell for giving me His hand and so much more.
Including, giving me an opportunity to to share of all of this with you, i Thank you all from all my heart, for taking out your precious time from your busy days to read my posts, to comment on them, to share them, to give your Amazing compliments and SO much more : ).

Wishing you all a Wonderful New Year ahead : ).

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A Break to a Journey of Discoveries – I of III

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{I first Thank God for everything he’s given me, also for all of my amazing readers here for their amazing & wonderful love & support who always supported me and inspire me to write more and a heartfelt Thanks to you all.}

Recently, as many of my readers know, I left for a break to another country i.e. my ex-hometown Dubai. To take out sometime for myself and to focus more on my work. I had been there quite a many times but this truly was one of the best breaks I’ve had in my life till now.  Well, but it came out to be a journey in which I discovered a lot more my true self.

Quite surprising, but that was one of the main reasons I left.

Had been through a lot, it seemed like just the right time to leave.

Until the last year, I was at the top of my work, excelled in every thing that I took up. But then all of a sudden I saw myself going down, living below the expectations of others but the most of all, myself.

I was myself with the others, but not my work. My work life was becoming a disaster, I’d stepped into the territory of laziness & time wastage, a LOT of it. I had lost interest in my work, I moved away from doing what I had to the most, it was a ruin. I had that miserable feeling running through me, all the time, I was becoming distracted, my priorities were haywire, people close to me started to see a change in me and how I was dealing with my work. It was a mess.

I had tried so many things, those motivations and inspirations lasted only for a short while, then I was back to it. It lasted for almost a year.

It was like my soul from the inside wanted something else, but my mind was going in the wrong direction.

But then something happened, Some wonderful people influenced my life. And some of them being quite special.

Okay I know there must be “eyebrows raised” ^  ^….LOL!

Yes, yes! there you go, you guessed it right, there’s a woman to it *wink*……hee hee ;D!, its someone whom I call a Sister, my elder Sis. Although not by blood, she’s but closer to me than one, she me helped in bringing out the real me, the person who I really should be for my work life. She never saw me as a mess or a disaster, which i thought i was, but looked into me and understood me for who I really am, making me realize that the reason I was feeling all the misery was that I was hiding my true self, this isn’t me, I m not a disaster, I don’t waste my time, people in my line of work know me for it. They were also shocked to see me going down this hole. It seemed like it was unending, well that was until God sent me her ;D!!!

What i do is something that i love doing and am great at it, its just what i want and would’ve wanted, Thank God :D!!! It wasn’t like it was something i didn’t love doing, that was main thing that came to the mind, and it bugged me too. But it just felt like my love for it had hidden away somewhere, in some deep dark corner of my heart and i never knew why.

My Sis taught me that what I felt and was happening around me was due to me not being my real person. I had embraced this new person who I really wasn’t for my work and certain small parts of my life and that’s what was holding me back from using my true potential. She made me understand the greatness, importance and relevance of becoming myself. She made me realize who i really am. She trusted me, my goals seemed crazy, but her faith and confidence in me, it felt just so great, so always said & says that i can do it, i have the ability to, no matter what the circumstances were. She told me she’d love to tell me a lot more, but she really wanted me to discover it myself………….more of what i learnt, how it made & inspired me into who i really am for my work and a cocktails of emotions, continued in A Break to a Journey of Discoveries – II