Anger, Lone Ventures and Driving…….from one end to the other

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An Awesome Start to day (Image is subject to the copyright of its owners)

Well ……you know what….It was last weekend Weekend πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ :D!!! YAY!!!!! An Awesome start i had to a Thundering Saturday…..i was like wooohoooo, still had, i saw the shining bright sun bring the new day, as the monsoon clouds retreated and went away back to their humble abode, finding a new destiny, i know they’ll be back, same time the next year. Theeere i go poetic :P.

And you know, there are times when things happen…..well Anger is not me, this Saturday took a U turn, suddenly things happened and my day felt like “Wha???”, while holding on to the Awesomeness of the day :). I tend to get angry when my Awesome day starts running towards “OMG! i want this day to pass real fast”…..

Felt angry at that moment (Image is subject to copyright of its owners)

Felt angry at that moment (Image is subject to copyright of its owners)

I don’t know how, and i didn’t remember also but i held onto this saying of Prophet Mohammed (peace be upon him) :Β “A strong person is not the person who throws his adversaries to the ground. A strong person is he who contains himself when he is angry.”

“Geez! what’s happening to my day”, another thought ran through my mind, “Its the weekend, this isn’t supposed to be happening!”

I do stuff at times when i m angry…..okay i mean ……Stuff…..LoL…here’s a small list of what i do :-

1) Sit if am standing, sleep if am sitting
2) Take a Long sleepers
3) Start watching something (movie, Tv, etc.)
4) Pray
5) Take some real long deep breathers
6) Talk to a friend
7) Write
8 ) Drive professionally… racer self is into action, but not causing probs. to anyone at all 8)
9) Indulge in Creativity πŸ™‚
10) Give up a some cash i have in pocket to charity…..that can go crazy at times, it helps me calm but πŸ˜›

I drove past the bay as i breathed the smell of the ocean (Image is subject to the copyright of its owners)

This time, something different happened, i took the keys to my Nicey scooter, prayed for a while, had tears in my eyes……Okay, let me tell you, people say, for them, one of the difficult things at times about being a man is crying, but i wasn’t nor am nor will be in those perceptions of others as the Soul we hold within is from God, so i let tears flow, which made me calm :). I looked at a cafe and my mind whispered “cafe” “cafe” I told myself “Next time ;D” and planned to Get Lost, yes Get Lost on purpose i planned on discovering new roads in the city, i’d done that once before when i was out of focus, but couldn’t drive much because it was very late at night, but i’d promised myself i’d be back that place and continue to see where the road leads, No Maps, no GPS, nothing!…….well i drove, I drove to the end of the city City, Literally the place where the city ends and the only way you can get ahead is by a floating…….i mean its an ocean………it was a wonderful feeling.
I saw a beautiful little Church on the way before that, i was like “God! haven’t ever seen that one!… was actual an Uphill road via a bay where the city ended.Β I’d learnt to assess the energy from my anger by putting it into something else, something beautiful, i Thank God for my sister, who let me know more about it.

I was humming a line from a song “The roads feel lovelier than the destination….” that was amazing.

The road felt almost the same as this. (Image is subject to copyright of its owners)

I stopped humming the song as i saw the thick trees across the road, blended their beautiful scent in the afternoon breeze, i took a big refreshing breath……..still not knowing where i was headed :).

I let my spirit wander……i knew, wherever i went, my heart would direct me home.

Okay, first thing if you wanna get lost, have a full tank of gas, i had! I came to junction, i had been there before, a long while ago, gosh!…..having a choice where to go, i asked a driver for direction to my home, i just drove away from it to find a longer route to be back ;D! I kept driving straight and i discovered some beautiful places, .Β I came across a pretty many HSBC bank branches, im like “man they’re everywhere” ….one of ’em reminded me….”oooh! I can call my relationship manager in the other Bank, she’d know some fool who could help me out if m lost :D!…LOL” My mobile was on Silent mode and i knew calling anyone wouldn’t be any use…coz many of them i knew didn’t even dread to go to those roads because there were shorter routes :P…i took a left ahead and after a little while another left. Guess what! I am back at the same junction…im like “Geezerzz!! i m back here….hahaha”

I drove, drove, drove and drove, God knows how many kilometers, finally i come to this Gianormous Road! NO two wheeler’s where there…. and Huge SUV zzzzzzoooomed! past me…i was like **gulps**…where the hell am i πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ ???”….i noticed a Muslim shrine far across, i knew people talking about going there, i’d been near that place only once as a child with my parents… was beautiful sight……finally! i came to the road where a close friend lives..,..”hahaha this fool doesn’t even know i m here”….noticed the coffee shop where he usually had coffee with his girlfriend…..he was out of the city then ;D!…..took up another junction of Getting Lost…LOL!!!….but now it was BRIGHT afternoon, the sun shining at its highest, you can’t really drive much on a Two-wheeler with that kinda Sun smiling upon you..LoL………i chose the way home.

SEE!!! There wasn’t anger, sweet warm feelings, wonderful memories and nothing else… had all disappeared….i came home taking a deep breath and laughing at myself, i had been through roads only surrounded by trees and the afternoon breeze, i had heard insects creaking in the bright sunlight, all the magic engulfed into me, i watched tall buildings and drove UP the hilly roads…..and down them….smelled the fresh sea as i drove by the 2 bays, both at different corners of the city. A time memorable indeed :).

Anger is a natural emotion, its when we experience it, we must hold our tongue and actions, think, observe and understand what it is, or just feel the anger, and put it into something beautiful, or do nothing at all, as one of the things i do, just going to bed for a few minutes, or taking a good shower, that helps, because at that time you start focusing on yourself, at times in anger we don’t focus on ourselves, in those moments we should smile and appreciate ourselves, do what we Love and let it vanish in your Love for ourselves.

Thank you so much for taking out your precious time for reading this and commenting on here, i’d Love to know what you like to do or do when you’re angry :). Wishing you all a wonderful new week ahead :D!


10 thoughts on “Anger, Lone Ventures and Driving…….from one end to the other

  1. I can relate to this, bud. I often get lost in my head, mainly because I don’t want to deal with idiots on the road and get more frustrated. It’s good to just empty your mind and “just be”. Let the bad out and the good in. Deeeeep breath, happy thoughts… Ah, much better! =oD

    • Hey hey Yomar :)) Welcome to Monologues of a Day Dreamer :D!!!

      In Loosing ourselves indeed we do find our true selves πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ :D!!!! hahahaha………in those moments when i was for the drive, i even treat unfamiliar drivers with Love, just flowing in my calm :))

      Remember my friend, nothing is ‘bad’…..everything has got something to teach, so indeed, they are all blessings and gifts, just disguised :).
      God has a beautiful reason for each of them πŸ˜‰

      I Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your amazing Love & support, indeed means a lot to me :)). Wishing you a blessedly Amazing day ahead :D!

  2. It sounds like this adventure was good for the soul. Sometimes just being alone and present within yourself is the best gift you can give yourself. You tell the story so well! Best Wishes.

    • Hey Gina :D! Hello & Welcome to Monologues of a Day Dreamer πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ :D!!

      Its an honor to see you here πŸ™‚

      Indeed, each adventure for the growth & betterment of us, always :).
      All my Gratitude to God…..hahahaha…….indeed its my life, a story, but way beyond a story, indeed written by God Himself :))

      I Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog and commenting here, sure does mean a lot to me :)). I hope you keep stopping by and enjoy reading the Journey of my Life from my perspective.

      With Blessings, Love & Regards.
      M. Faizan

  3. I can really relate to the deeeeep breaths and shifting the thoughts. Thanks for your reflections which have invited me into my own.

    Anger. Hmmm. It is almost always a secondary emotion for me. What I mean by that is that when I have already started feeling something else (usually fear or shame/hurt) and without conscious effort, my anger rises to make me think I’ll be puffed me up and more powerful. Does anger ACTUALLY make me more powerful? No. Why do I think that I need to become more powerful in the face of these other feelings? Because my knee-jerk (inner child kinda stuff) reaction to the fear, etc. is that I need someone else to take care of me and simultaneously don’t trust that this will happen.

    What I am learning to do is take care of the primary feeling myself. In other words, let’s say it’s fear that comes up first. Instead of immediately switching the outward feeling to anger, when I can take a breath (also slowing my heart-rate) I can then notice the fear and acknowledge it within myself. By doing this, and seeing that the fear does not require caretaking by someone else, I can continue to accept myself wholly and return to the situation as a man with fear. Period. The fear that must be covered in anger comes from a man who does not take responsibility for his own feelings and who judges that he will be dealt with harshly if he does not puff himself up. The fear that is just fear comes from the me who knows that my human experience comes with these varied and beautiful feelings; that fear is one of the several e-motions (energy(in)motion) which is part of this experience. It is a part of my whole and does not need to be fixed or masked.

    I don’t know if this will make sense to anyone else, but it makes sense to me. As I become the man I want to be, I welcome the fear that I see as “just fear”. I am whole with my fear, shame, hurt, anger, sadness, joy, love. I embrace it all.

    Playful blessings,
    Stan Stewart (aka @muz4now)

  4. Great writing Faizan!! It is always good to read some content that supports the power of our emotions and how we can learn how to use them for our own good.
    What makes a human being is its humanity and what lies in his humanity is his ability to feel…
    with Love and Light!

  5. Every human being did experience Hanger, everyone did react as its his own personality & its education but we all human know that hanger leads to nowhere and the best thing to do is to find a why to cool it, as you mentioned on your blog post, some of your ways are so effective ,I personally did try some of it & it released me a lot πŸ™‚
    No hanger but love only, great article Mohammad!

  6. Bravo! again, Mr Clever!!
    This is awesome! I had thoroughly enjoyed reading it. I can feel the immediate emotion that goes with it partly because I can relate to that kind of happenings. I remember that it had happened to me once–driving aimlessly on the highway looking for peace. In the end I managed to get back home using the GPS of my iphone.

    Once again, thanks for sharing! You rock!

  7. It is amazing what happens when you “get lost”! I am fortunate enough to have the ocean nearby. I will drive there and park then just walk. It is amazing how nature can really help you to ground yourself each and every time! Thanks for sharing this!

  8. I like the stuff you do to dispel your anger. Those are great ideas, stuff I’ll remember. I usually don’t like driving much, but every now and then, getting lost in the mountains, venturing out of Los Angeles County and heading north, or even driving the seemingly endless roads in the Hollywood Hills is enjoyable. I find myself yelling, “Weee!” when I go down hills like a little girl. But, this little girl drives a stick shift.

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